Now or not happening

i think i am resolving to not complain about or even mention being busy.

i think this is part of my particular social conditioning and is too often used as an excuse or a dodge for not doing something, which i am failing to do out of a lack of interest or desire.  Lots of people are busy and many of them dont get much done.  By complaining about being busy, one simply puts themselves in this large group for people using poor planning as their excuse.

Correspondingly, folks who think i am always busy (because i have complained about it) often ask “Is this a good time?”

to which i often quip, “there are only two times in my life: now and not happening”

When i write the mtg notes immediately after the mtg, they come into being.  If i wait until i “have time” to write them, they mostly never come into existence.

When i am feeling grandiose and clever about myself i put out this thesis.  Most people choose there thing to be good at.  It might be work, it might be a hobby, usually there is a primary focus of activity, perhaps two.  This focus increases practice and generally builds ability.  Sometimes these people become masters of their area, more often their egos are tied up in how well they do this focus area.

I approach life from the other direction.  I am not really trying to be a master at any single field.  Instead, i am trying to keep my fingers dirty in a bunch of different areas: story telling, memetics, funology, polyamory, intentional community development, anti-nuclear activism, Occupy and on and on.

So at any given time i have a bunch of stuff up in the air, and busy poor planner that i am, i fail at stuff.  Sometimes this is conscious, more often i just forget about what i had planned to do and get distracted by some other things which has drawn my attention in the moment.  Immodestly, i do more things than most people.  And as a function of this particular style, i screw up or abandon far more things than most people.